My bill just arrived and I discovered I was charged $30 for a 9 minute phone conversation with my brother in Germany. I always use 10-10-987 for my calls, since I can't afford "standard" rates. I am beyond furious, as a FIOS rep just told me "sometimes the 10-10-987 doesn't get 'picked up' with FIOS and that's not Verizon's routing problem." Too bad, so sad, I'm out $30. I'm so angry. Every available penny of every pay check is taken up in living expenses. I haven't been able to put a dime in savings for months. I still have $0.77 there. If something bad happened to me today, someone might as well smother me with a damn pillow in my hospital bed because I couldn't afford to do shit to take care of myself.
You know, I keep the FIOS service because the bundle is cheap, cable TV is my main - and 98% of the time, only - affordable remaining vice, and the Internet I use for working at home. But I have to figure out now what I can cut out for next month in order to pay this extra on the bill. Goddamit. What do I skip? Laundry? Gas? A prescription? A doctor's appointment? Fuck!
I'm running out of "good stuff" I can try to sell on eBay or on the Intranet at work. That cupboard is pretty damn bare. And no one wants the crap I have left over.
I really need to talk a walk now and cool down, but I'm not supposed to be walking far.
Fuck! Fuck! Fuckety fuck!