Smoke lingers ‘round your fingers
Train heave on to Euston
Do you think you’ve made the right decision this time?
“London”, The Smiths
On February 24, 2004, 100 Iraqis died in two suicide bombings in the Baghdad area.
On January 30, 2005, 16 Iraqis died in a series of suicide bombings and rocket & mortar attacks on polling stations in and around Baghdad.
On February 25, 2005, 30 Iraqis – mostly civilians – died in a series of suicide bombings throughout Iraq.
On May 1, 2005, 25 Iraqis died in two suicide bombings in Baghdad, 20 at a police academy graduation ceremony and 5 at a nearby police station, bringing the death toll for that day and the previous four to 90.
On May 5, 2005, 29 Iraqi policemen died in a series of suicide bombings in and around Baghdad.
On July 7, 2005, at least 37 people died in suicide bombings in London.
How many of us remember each of those multiple deaths by terror in Iraq? How many of us can name the full number of dead in Iraq? And yet, we’ll remember the 37 in London very clearly.
There are some who will say, “Yes, but, you see, the Iraqis live in a war zone. It is to be expected.” To them I say, with all due respect, those Iraqis had no intention of living in a war zone any more than those London commuters did this morning.
I mean no disrespect to our friends in London. I do not mean to diminish in any way the shock and horror and sadness of this rotten, rotten day. God, no.
I love London. I know that city better than I know any other city in the world. Better than Moscow, where I lived for nearly four years. Better than DC, where I’ve lived for more than a decade. One of my friends used to call me “The Walking ‘A to Zed’” after the ubiquitous London Streetfinder mapbook.
The bus that was ripped apart by filthy animals today was destroyed on Tavistock Square. That’s where I lived for a year when I attended the London School of Economics. Passfield Hall, on Endsleigh Place, the northern side of Tavistock Square, a small green urban park, the centerpiece of which is a statue of Gandhi. The local Indian population drape him in flowers on a nearly daily basis. We students simply called Tavistock Square “Gandhi Park.” Isn’t it ironic?
Initially, I’d heard that the bus was destroyed at Russell Square, but it was the confusion of the U.S. media. Then I saw the images and recognized the building that was my home for a year. And the anger and upset and fear that had been rising in me just welled up.
But why am I so hugely touched by what happened in London today, and yet, I am ashamed to say, I barely blink an eye at the multiple casualties that slam Iraq virtually every day? I think the answer is complex, and it’s bothered me all day.
London, like New York and a handful of other cities, is a symbol to the world of the West. London is an icon. It’s also a vibrant, living city. It’s something more tangible and understandable and accessible to most of us here than Baghdad ever will be. It’s not alien landscape. And, for me, it’s personal. It was my home at a very difficult time, right after my father died. It’s the source of so much of the culture that is dear to me – the music and words and humor and dark sarcasm that helped form the person I am.
It’s likely that I’ll never meet many Iraqis in my life. I cannot fathom Islam, though I’ve read the Koran, and I can’t understand more than five or ten words of Arabic, so I will never be able to understand Iraqis.
I once knew a gentleman named Fetikh Teshibayev. Mr. Teshibayev was the Deputy Foreign Minister of Uzbekistan just after the break-up of the Soviet Union. He had been a senior Soviet official who served as an envoy to the Middle East during the 1970’s, and he was – well, still is – a very savvy diplomat. Later he would serve as Uzbekistan’s first ambassador to the United States. He and I butted heads repeatedly during preparations for Secretary of State Baker’s first visit to the independent nation of Uzbekistan. I was the only Russian speaker in a fairly large delegation sent to Tashkent (the two other Russian speakers succumbed to food poisoning early on and got “med-evac’ed” out to Moscow.) I was young, a contractor, and saddled with a lot of responsibility. But, I’d traveled a great deal in the region and knew Uzbek culture and traditions.
Mr. Teshibayev and I "engaged in lively debate" about visit preparations, but we understood one another. I could fathom his culture, if even through a language that was secondary to both of us, but a requirement of life in his country. (This man taught me a lot about diplomacy, too. One night, when the advance delegation – mostly security and communications guys – refused to eat the presidential chef’s goat soup, I was called on the carpet. Mr. Teshibayev quietly glowered at me and uttered this great line, “When I was in China, I ate the snake.” That line is a classic with my friends.)
About ten years back, when Mr. Teshibayev was overseeing the Uzbek Embassy here in Washington, I dropped by to visit. We talked and Mr. Teshibayev mentioned that the Uzbek government was considering endowing a graduate scholarship to Indiana University. He looked at me and said, “You should apply. You should be a Central Asian scholar. You understand us. You get us.”
I get them. That’s what I wish I could do with the Iraqis. I wish I could get them enough for their losses to resonate with me as soundly as London’s losses today.
I wish all my family and friends and strangers on the street could get the Iraqis, too. I wish there was a better way to differentiate between suicide bombers and normal people in Iraq, to demonstrate to normal people in Iowa and Wisconsin and Nebraska that there was a country of decent people (led by a vicious lunatic, for sure) where there is now rubble. I wish there was a better way to help people see that most Iraqis are as innocent as those London commuters this morning.
And then, maybe, we could weep as sincerely and deeply and honestly for Iraq’s losses as we weep for London’s.
Goodnight, London. Peaceful dreams to you, friends. And goodnight Baghdad. I wish you no more nightmares.
As the late Dave Allen used to say, "May your god go with you."
I know what you mean - I was feeling the same thing today - why I didn't feel connected to other similar occurences, but living in London means I am now.
Maybe it'll change my outlook in the future - I'll pay more attention? Or maybe not, I don't know.
May take a few more blogs to get this out my system! Hope your friends were ok like mine are.
Glad you're okay, Heaven. Glad your friends are, too. It's strange when all of the mess in the world suddenly becomes close and personal. It changes the tenor of everything.
I wish this piece could get published and recorded and sent all around the world. It may be too timely to get on your radio broadcast but some version of this really needs to get heard. Thank you for putting into words how I've been feeling today. I have no direct London connection (no friends, never been there) but it is the icon/roots of my culture and affects me as you've written. Thank you.
Thanks, Carol. I was driving around today just thinking and thinking and thinking about it, and when I found my fingers drumming so hard on the steering wheel it hurt, I figured I better stop and write it down. I was trying to find the balance between my anger and my shame at not feeling the same way about the same things happening elsewhere. I'm glad it resonated with some other folks, too.
Really appreciate your words.
I usually feel really disconnected from these kinds of things, they usually happen elsewhere...and although it's still 4/5 hours away from me in the car - in good traffic! It had an effect in a way no other attacks have.
But I have to agree that we don't remember the people who die in Iraq and well frankly, we don't remember the thousands of people around the world who die on a daily basis in equally saddening moments.
What happened in London was horrific, but as September 11th goes...we were lucky!
London was lucky in the relative picture, but it's still so sad and angering. I'm selfishly glad no one I know was hurt, but I feel horrible for those grieving and injured - and for those who still do not have a resolution. For those still waiting and wondering and hoping and fearing. :-(
Oddly enough, my husband and I talk about the deaths in Iraq frequently... for whatever reason, we keep count and we grieve...
Although, the culture is alien to me, they ARE people just like us. You can see it in their eyes, in their facial gestures and the way they move their bodies... we are the same on so many fundamental levels.
I have always felt very strongly about the words of John Donner:
"We are more than just individuals; we are an integral part of community. "No man is an Island, entire of itself; every man is a piece of the Continent, a part of the main, if a clod be washed away by the sea, Europe is the less. Any man’s death diminishes me, because I am involved in mankind and therefore never send to know for whom the bell tolls, it tolls for thee."
However, let me state empatically, that I DO NOT understand what motivates that "faction" within their society that carries out these suicide bombings.
Not just the bombings on their European "enemies". But the brutal bombings against their own people. How can they de-humanize their own people and kill people whom they supposedly share a belief system with? People they may even know, whose blood flows through their veins also?
Today's bombing was especially painful.
"Suicide bomber kills 18 Iraqi kids"
No child deserves to die while hoping for candy. How in the name of their god can they (the bombers) justify that? How is it that their Jihad includes small, innocent Islamic children?
Why are they hurting their own? These groups, they do not value their own kin folk. Just how insane is that?
I want to remember these Iraqian victims and value them, with as much passion as the victims of terrorism elsewhere in this world.
Don't seek to analyse insanity - that road leads only to madness.
Lets hope this madless will end like some illness - I can't see an end through arms unless the whole worlds reacts as one - and that would only happen in a dream.
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